NINETEEN :)

today my dad mention that today is both my actual bday and also my bday in the chinese calendar =D hmm..i think this time God is trying to teach me independence..since young very protected by my parents until now which i only see my dad on weekends and mum is always very busy..then best fren..she's is like the opposite of me haha..like she is the more tougher and stronger so u can tell im very much protected..nobody dared to hurt me for 4 years u know =D it's so true that opposite attracts..i think i rely too much on people..hahas..

i probably learnt more and exprienced more than i did 2 years back..life isnt as easy with more downs than ups..i've still have many downside..like learning to get back on ur feet would take more time..and happiness is now harder to find cos there's always the issue of trust and to care more would also mean being more disappointed n troubled which can bring u down a lot..and first cut is the deepest..then there's others too

but there's a reason to be happy right?

this year, i think the most impt things is to learn to really let go..to learn to see people who has caused hurt differently..like to not hate.. becos i think love is stronger than hate..forgive is another part which she said she didnt need it yeah, but is more like letting go and to treasure the good moments..which im still struggling with becos the past still seem so real..and im always struggling with doing wat's right and doing wat i feel..

this year's birtday is sweet in a way that people whom i didnt expect, was a nice surprise..i got to celebrate with 5 diff grps of ppl =DD and the BEST and SWEETEST gifs were not the presents..like all those 'I love you's from people which reminds me when was the last time i said that to someone close..and people giving their time for u...

and i think the most memorable thing was when i was leaving then Fon called me back and gave a hug..eh..i became very emotional in a happy way..i didnt expect and yeah, i needed it cos the week had been horrible with people sad and me too so it was damn hard to do something and feeling helpless la..im still feeling very touched =D

and today duckie must have been super busy..probably im the last thing on duckie's mind..yeah..should just stay there like always

and today was cloudy hahas..which reminds me that it is not only when the 'sun' shines in ur life that means that everything is okie.. but sometimes, in the darkest storms in your life, u may exprience the sweetest miracles

the things of the world will fade away one day..